He is not doing well at all. He's at home and my company is paying for hospice for him. In good spirits though....on plenty of painkillers, etc. He won't be with us much longer.....the cancer has completely spread to all over his body.  

I feel like the most horrible person ever because I can't bring myself to go visit him; I've never known anyone termenally ill and wouldn't know what to say....I think that if I saw him I would just burst into tears. And yes....in a couple of weeks I will so regret not saying g'bye to him.

Don't know what to do........except to say again to love your loved-ones right now and at this moment.

Nat, try to bring yourself to go see him. A lot of people that did not come say bye to Josh, regret it now. It will bring him a little comfort to know how much you care.

It appears to me that you answered your own question, Nat.....

Your friend is in my thoughts and prayers, and you are too.  Even if you don't actually say "goodbye," that's what you're going to do.  Its not going to be easy, but you will be SO glad you did.  In 2001, I said goodbye to a neighbor who had been like a grandfather to me.  We went the night he died, just a few hours before, and all said goodbye to him.  I'm so glad we did. 

I concur with what everyone else said.  Go.  You'll hate yourself if you don't.  And don't worry about what to say.  He knows the drill.  Just talk about what he wants to talk about.  He knows that most people don't know what to say, so just follow his lead. ..He will know what you're there for.

I so hope that you go Nat. You don't have to say ANYTHING. And it's okay to cry.